How bad do you Want it?

Coming close over here on year two of Raya on Assignment and to get here I had to not necessarily give up a lot but LET GO of a lot.

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Quite a bit physically- like drinking, unnecessary spending, time wasting things, anything that wasn’t life giving and directly funneling into the goal of creating a business around what it is that fills me up the most.

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Quite a bit mentally- like an unhealthy relationship with food, obsessing and controlling, allowing negative thoughts direct the day, letting anxiety and depression keep me complacent. Letting low self esteem keep saying ‘be thankful that you have a job, you can’t possibility create your own.’

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Though thankful for that ^ those signs, pings, clues, gently or not so gently let me know that I wasn’t quite on my best path. That what was going on wasn’t serving me or others.

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When we are ready we are ready. November of 2015 I committed to leaving my job by February of 2016 to do what it is that fills me up the most. A few months to ‘prepare’ though really had been ‘preparing’ forever.

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When we want it so badly there is no other option- our desire gently speaks louder and louder than that fear and WE GO.

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We are ready when we are ready.

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One thought on “How bad do you Want it?

  1. Sounds like you were ready, Raya. Congratulations on manifesting your vision and going where your energy is strong. Many others are also benefiting from your decision! Good ki!

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